Dealing with depression

I know that a lot of people deal with depression daily. I have been going through it lately. I know it will never go away but of course I’d love it to. And I’m sure everyone who deals with it would feel the same way.

I have very soft feelings and they get hurt the most when I’m feeling down or around the time my “Monthly” comes around. I just deal with it and move on. I have meds but I don’t want to take it. I don’t like to feel like something is controlling me. Do you? I am scared of death and it also makes me the type of person who is careful about the daily stuff I do or when I go out in public.

I use to drive on the highway but now you will hardly catch me on it. I have no idea what happen to me. The older I get the worse my anxiety has become and it’s very scary.

My anxiety is so bad at times that it makes my BP high and it goes away within days. Have you ever felt like that? I will be ok then BAM! Sometimes my anxiety can last up to a week where I feel so bad. Light headed, high BP, feeling scared to go out in public. I am just so tired of feeling that way. It’s not a every day thing. But I do know it gets worse sometimes and I cry because I do not want to feel that way.

I’m going to start seeing a therapist to help me talk through it. I don’t have any local friends anymore. I’m guessing they moved on. I don’t have anyone to talk to, no husband (not that I want one) and no family.

And no, I’m not ashamed to admit I have mental health problems and you shouldn’t be either.

 

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